For the guy who once was mine…

Maybe it’s for the last time that I’m gonna call you my “BABE”. Babe, I wanna start it by saying THANK YOU and SORRY.

SORRY…

For the things that I have done. Sorry being such a brat. I did it babe to catch your attention for it has been a longtime that you haven’t replied to any of my messages. You don’t even give updates on your game. You know I’d really love to hear those things. Babe, all I want is just a text or something that would give me an information that you are okay. I regret ding that damn thing. I am indeed aware that by this time I am being so selfish but babe it is because I need you that much. I miss you and i love you so. I am definitely jealous. Another reason is that, I need someone to talk to. I have been in a hard time babe, and every time I am talking to you.. Whatever the problem is , it seems like everything will be just fine. I never thought that I would be so miserable like this since the day that you left. I am sorry for everything babe. Hoping that you would forgive me.

THANK  YOU…

It is for every little and big things that you have done unto me. Especially the LOVE and the TRUST that you have bestowed upon me.  The unconditional love and the intimate relationship that we had shared, I have NO REGRETS in doing it. Babe, even though I have known you for such a short period of time, it feels like I have known you ever. You proved a lot of things unto me but all I did is to put a doubt in everything that you did and said. When you told me you wont GIVE UP, I believe you. But things would really have to change, I know that you are the tough type of guy that once you said it, yo would really stand on what you believed in. Babe, I know it is hard for you to forgive me, you have said unto me that “Ako ang type na pinaninindigan kung ano ang sinabi ko. Kapag ayaw ko , ayaw ko na talaga” Babe, I am asking for forgiveness… At least even though you don’t want nor need me anymore for somehow you did forgive and that’s enough. I will be so happy for that babe. Thank you talaga ha? Kahit panandalian lang you made me so happy and took all the BITTERNESS in me. You know what happened unto me in my past, and YOU changed that negative perception in me. You have proved that there are still GOOD GUYS out there. You made me feel IN LOVE and SPECIAL.

I know that this moment in time, you don’t really want to see me not even talk unto me. I wanna tell you that you don’t have to worry if you would pursue your MedTech course in UIC because on the semester and the following years I will not be able to continue my studies for some reasons You will never ever see me again. Happy now? This is why I acted so rude and I was paved by my emotions. I feel like screaming because I don’t have anyone to talk to. You are the only person who could understand me the most. Sorry again for that.

Yes, I am STRONG. But I think I must limit it now. I have now ranged on my strengths and my WEAKNESSES are now over taking me. You already GAVE ME UP, as well as my dad. Babe, it’s your decision if you would forgive me and give this relationship another chance. :( If not, I would accept it whole heartedly. Maybe everyting that’s about US would end in this letter. If there come a time that we will meet, let’s just pretend that we don’t know each other. STRANGERS as they say. It would be as if I NEVER EXISTED on your life. I love you babe and I guess this is goodbye. :’(

HUGS and KISSES TO SPONGEBOB :(

Kimi